Wow... So it's been a while since I've updated this. I suppose that can be attributed to too many distractions as of late (?). What a better way to start again than to reflect back.
At a recent City and Colour concert I attended Dallas Green said something that really challenged my thinking on music, and I can apply it to life as well. He talked about how it is difficult for him to play a song that he wrote years ago, his "old" material per say. He struggles with revisiting his old work because he realizes just how much things have changed since he wrote it. He is in a different place in his life. He has grown, moved on. He has trouble getting in touch with that music, and it completely makes sense.
Although some consider this (me included) to be his best work, Dallas definitely justified why he has trouble playing it. I recently read through some of the old songs I had written, and I tried to focus on what I was feeling, thinking, the place I was in my life when they were relevant. I like to believe that what I write has the purpose of being applied to any situation I encounter, and hardships I face, but I know that is not the truth.
However, there are a few songs, which Dallas proved by playing "Like Knives," that just seem to have a way of sticking around and reconnecting us to those moments in life. That is what I try to do, not for the mere purpose of rekindling harsh emotions (albeit the point at times), but to learn how exactly I moved on and overcame obstacles; to teach myself how not to fall victim to those traps, those struggling times that seemed to suck life away.
So here it is. A song written long ago, one of the first. Why this one? I wish I knew exactly why. It has always stuck with me. I still search to know exactly what I was trying to tell myself. The weight it carries is significant in more ways than I'll ever understand.
http://youtu.be/bkpwBf_g-Kc
Let me learn from this. Look at the past, to move on from the present into a brighter future.
